5 months on..........ths same old story

Five months back I wrote something against UPTU which read like " Asia's largest technical University ......" and then followed up within a couple of days seeing the PPL exam question paper that read something like, " Did the VC ..... ". In the latter topic I had mentioned I was impressed with the standards of the question paper and if this was to be maintained then I will have to study throughout the sem in order to secure some good marks. When a friend read that post, he said, " Are you serious about studying throughout? " At that time I said I was very serious.....
Its been five months since that day....the next semester exams has come, due for a finish in a week and I find myself in the same situation again....not studied again and now I recall that posting of mine. HUH ! Haven't studied again and again impressed with the UPTU standards after the computer networks exam paper.
If I don't pass then that is solely my responsibilty as I didn't study but what made me more dejected that I didn't know the practical questions which I expect myself to be knowing. Really sad on my part. I was really happy to see practical questions and even more happy when a couple of friends told me that these things were not there in book, don't know but that makes me really happy. What to say now...... I am really heading downwards with no study and no knowledge....too bad on ly part.Hope I recover soon or I should say " Get well soon Abhinav".