Monday, May 07, 2007

Oops I did it again !

Why me only?? Thats was the question I asked dada yesterday even before I had been through my scrapbook. While I was figuring out with dada what I should do to prove that I was not the culprit, I thought of showing him what Ms.P had to say regarding the poll. The speed of net had as usual been the speed of light and so before I could see my scrapbook my new Motorola W220 rang, the second only call on my phone, had Piyush telling me that something's gone wrong. I thought there must have been wild reactions regarding the poll only. I had not sensed danger by then but when I saw my scrapbook I knew I was screwed, that too unneccessarily. EIGHT new scraps! At first instance I did not understand anything. All I saw was Ms.A(1), Ms.B(2), Ms.C(5) having threatened me. (The number in brackets denote the number of scraps they made) The next step was to find out who this Ms.B was (as it was the first time I had any scrap from her), Ms.A being already known to me and Ms.C having given quite a detalied introduction of her apart from her dad's intro too.
I closed my eyes and lied down as I knew something was coming to me and I had no clue as to how I was going to face this. At first I thought to delete the community straighaway and then my profile too. But was I acting intelligently?? No, as I feel now. Well, by now I had changed my mind and asking for pardon had been out from the brain. My new mobile had been ringing by now every second, though for the wrong reasons only. I lied to someone whom I didnt't want to, regarding the incident and being unknown of everything. Took those steps without thinking anything and for the sole purpose of buying TIME. That act of mine saved me from blushes atleast at that moment.
Later after thinking of something so that I could defy everything the next day, we took some technically sound steps, though that was very dangerous, but to keep options open I had to do that and play safe. Anyways after all this I returned to my hostel and was given the same welcome which I got when I came back from IPEC after getting through the iGate process. I was surrounded by all hostelers and a flurry of questions were fired on me. Best thing was that I wasn't serious, atleast pretending not to be. I spent some time with everybody and then came back to my room. Had a chat with the guy to whom I had lied before. Then things cooled down for me as he assured me that I was safe and that people had understood the technical details. I don't know whether they understood whether I wasn't the culprit but all I knew was that my name would not be there at the notice board, for the first time for wrong reasons and for which I heaved a HUUUGE sigh of relief.
A mehfil in my room after that till around 3 a.m. after which we went to our best place to remove stress i.e. our dhabas, sapna this time as upadhyay ji has put his shutter down since a past few days. Came back and slept at around 5.30 in the morning, ending quite an eventful day of my life.

A poll, NOT created by me. An act in which every hosteler was an active participant, 150 guyz logged on to the community at the same time for the first time, 7 new requests for the community in a single day (the highest ever), community being active for every second till the poll was removed. Between all this, I buy a new mobile, have some chinese stuff, enjoy with friends, and before I have the last piece of the lemonade the party ends for me with a message. End results are only to say that I am no more. No support for me in future, friends lost in the process, I am the most hated guy in the girls hostel, be it batchmates, seniors or juniors and all I can say is that. " खाया पिया कुछ नही , ग्लास तोड़ा १२ अाना ".

Did I deserve to be where I am today? Thinking about everything all the time, people having friends in the GH, some of whom voted too, looking in my eyes with revenge. Mocking me around and pointing out fingers on me. The new bad guy of college. Creating waves around like anything.

I don't rue that I was the part of it, I don't rue that people call me bad guy, I don't rue that they hate me but all I rue is that people along with FRIENDS never had faith in me. Atleast those who are friends,infact I should use the word "WERE" now, didn't even bother to ask me once that what was the truth. They believed what others said and what they saw without even applying their brains. They would have first taken care of the technicalities what they were talking of, forget the belief they had in me, if they ever had.

Much more to say but not to explain, I think this topic can make me write some more pages if I don't stop now. All I get to learn from this episode is the answer to "why it happens with me only". I have to build more faith among my (so called) friends towards me by doing a lot unneccessary talking, which since I think is against my nature being a techie and being a guy who has lot to learn and see much more in life and face even greater difficult circumstances...

At the end of the episode, though it still HAUNTS me each and every second, all I can say is : "May life be fair to me next time".

P.S. Everything written in this blog are solely the writer's views and are not meant to hurt the feelings or sentiments of the general public.
Copyright:Abhinav Sahai

4 comments:

G A U R A V !! said...

hey seku
this was the one of the best topic of ur blog which i hv ever read...
par vo jo kehte hain na jo hota hai acche ke liye hota hai , sahi kehte hain....

Abhinav Sahai said...

the best incident in my life, since i've been blogging, needed to be the best topic

after knowing and seeing for urself, gaurav can u really say that its for my good ?? atleast i can't say this at this moment...

Unknown said...

well..well..well..
though m readin ths post 4 third time..bt now i feel like commenting...
well dear..smtimes misunderstandins do creep in..n u hv to face thm n tackle thm.
i donno wich frenz r u talkin about
..bt mark ma words..
if thy are ur frenz..thn thy wud defntly show faith..sooner o later js u need to clear out everythng..n plzz..do keep ego far away...whr frenz r cncerned..
stop leavin things unanswered..even if dat person dnt listen..u need to
make everythng clear..atleast 4 ur satisfaction.
n i knw..if dat person accepted u as a frend smtime...thn defntly..he/she will enquire..bout d prob..for his/her satisfaction..
hope..even ur frenz showed faith in u..
yehi to lyf hai...it teaches u..n givs u chance to find real gems in d mud...heheh..wot say???

Abhinav Sahai said...

true to d the core
i realised dis
true frnd came back....realy helpful